Believe me…

After a while, the hurt will hurt less. You will start to see a reason, and understand why they did what they did.

Actually, knowing that it takes two hands to clap. Learn, that not everyone you meet will stay in your life forever. Sometimes, they’re just passing character in a chapter of your book. There to teach you a certain lesson, to help you experience different things in life-different emotions, to grow, and maybe to show you how to love yourself better. Note this, find your worth.

Some of these characters will be difficult to replace when their time has come to an end in a chapter of your life. But, it is important to learn and to see the necessity to let them go, even if you don’t want to.

At the beginning, it will hurt. It’s the kind of hurt that will leave you crying till you fall asleep at 3 p.m., with a puffy eyes, nose blocked and swollen. The kind of hurt that follows you everywhere – reminding you of the memories you had once shared at particular pieces you pass by. The hurt that leaves you thinking if you ever meant anything to them. Heartbreak is inevitable, especially with the people you love. But, if it’s one thing i’ve learned, you can’t have expectation. Right ? Expectation will kill you. Kill your own pure heart.

You can’t expect them to love you back the same way you love them, with the same amount of intensity, and that was also my friend’s the sad truth. The way you love someone-that doesn’t determine the way that person is going to love you back. You can have a multiple connections with people, but that doesn’t necessarily mean that they are meant for you. And darling, it’s the same with love! The applies to both friendships and relationships, as we hate to admit it.

You all guys surely has already find this quotes that say ‘the hardest part about losing someone you love is not the goodbye, rather than learning how to live a life without them”. Relate ? And what fuels the hurt is when you see how they’re able to move on without you. But you can’t blame them? To be honest, haha yes you can’t. My mom or even my dad always said to me when I was in a broken heart mode that “if you really that person, you will let them to be happy. Even if it is means that they’re gonna be happy without you, you will respect that and let them go. Because you want them to be happy, right? It’s just a simple as that.”

But what if I don’t want to let them go? Would you rather be happy with someone, but that person doesn’t feel the same kind of happiness with you? That really bothered me, a lot honestly. The one thing people crave, it’s love and being valued. However, when you look for love, to find that healing to fill that void they’ve left – I have found that it never really works out. It’s not purely genuine ? I feel it’s more of a forced connection because you want to fill that void, you crave that drug and rush called ‘love’ because it’s a beautiful feeling. However the best kind of love, something that I find the purest, is unexpected love. Because you’re not looking for something, you’re not looking for healing. Sometimes, through the people that we meet, we find healing. And the world doesn’t seem that better after all.

And believe me again..we need to hurt to grow. We can’t protect our self perfectly to not feeling hurt. We cant grow if we protect our self perfectly. All you habits and idiosyncrasies will stay the same. Life becomes stagnant when people protect their starred issues. So, if you truly want to grow you need to accept that every kind of hurt that comes. You need to do the opposite, a real spiritual growth happens when there is only one of you inside.

Do not protest …

When soda becomes vodka, love become hate, bless become scars, kissed turn into sex. And do you remember that the only getting high you only knew was the swinging on the playground? When protection meant wearing a helmet? When the worst thing you could get from boys were cooties? Dad’s shoulder were the highest place on earth and mom was the only hero you knew ? your worst enemies were your siblings. When wearing a skirt didn’t make you a slut, and the only drug you knew was cough medicine. The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees? That were kind of growth.

To get help you back onto your feet, and you’re much stronger now. Stronger than before, aware.

Aware of how love can be so fragile and pure yet it has the power to break, shatter and destroy.

Wiser, as to who you allow yourself to love.



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