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Prolog
Siapa gw? Kenapa gw terlahir seperti ini? Apa ini jalan yang dibuat tuhan untuk hidup gw? Kenapa gw harus cerita tentang diri gw? Emang yakin orang lain peduli ama hidup gw? Gw mah bodoh amat.
Gw ini cuma seorang manusia yang terlahir menikmati kesendirian? Apa sih enaknya sendiri ? sendiri itu enak bro disaat lo nangis gak akan ada yang tau. Orang bilang gw cengeng bodoh amat ama yang lo bilang ini hidup gw? Gw yang menjalani susahnya hidup gw! Terampasnya masa kecil gw! Anehnya percintaan gw! Tobatnya diri GW! Rusaknya diri gw! Dan idealisme-idealisme semu gw! Tapi kenyataannya gw takut...
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I'm afraid of the way I live my life.
I'm afraid of the way I don't.
I'm afraid of the things I want to do but I won't.
I'm afraid of God.
I'm afraid to believe and I'm afraid of all the loved ones that I've made leave.
I'm afraid that my dog doesn't love me anymore.
I'm afraid of the social laziness that let Kitty Genovese die.
And I'm afraid of the mob mentality that makes otherwise normal people go blind.
I'm afraid of the way that the world works and I'm afraid of the words in my notebooks.
I'm afraid that you all know that I am a pervert.
But the big red bird that lives under the city
doesn't give a damn about me and it dies every night.
By burning a light.
I'm afraid of my grandfathers cancer.
And I'm afraid of my mom's.
I'm afraid that I've somehow caused my family harm.
I'm afraid that the ones I love won't have enough.
I'm afraid that the ones I love won't have enough.
It's harder to be yourself than it is to be anybody else.
I wish I were a little less of a coward but the big red bird that lives under the city
doesn't give a damn about me and it dies every night.
So I bought a knife.
I am a knife.
