Hell. Living under the same roof. Seeing him happy living with such a cute and smart son. Having us went together a lot, laughing and chatting stuffs as if everything is okay. Posting photoshoot of smiling faces.
Having someone nearly perfect as I ever dreamed as husband, yet he never bothered to try to touch me, ever since I want a divorce but has not been approved by church. Keputusan pisah ranjang diambil dg lapang dada. Tugas ayah ditunaikan. Setoran ke istri ditunaikan. Tanggung jawab. Baik sama mertua.
Yet this night I cried.
Am I the bad one for not wanting this bliss?


Why is it everybody else doing separation like it's so easy? Sometime it disgusts me how easy I could get information about friends' failed marriage so easily from social medias. They did it like an announcement? Really? What kind of life are people living in nowadays?
But also, what do I thinking, showing people in social medias that my life is great? Or at least I hid it. What did everybody else feel when they give their ruined life to public? Is it liberating or what?


What wouId I got on future years?