I dunno, sometimes i wish i die, i have no skill, i have no friend to trust, i have no everything that ppl have this day, but i hold myself too hard.
My first day as employeee, am scared what if i do something wrong and impact me, am scared facing morning and night, everything seems to be heavy.
When i woke up, i used to think that another day should improving me by being what i want to be.
I have so many "BUT" in my life, i want to stop but i should walk like i used to be.

Thats why, am afraid that ppl always seeing me happy, and expect anything from me. I am me, and just me, with so many problems.
My anxiety are the real deal, I go to psycholog for almost 2 years, got tears and bleed on my nose every night, or when am too scared of anything.
I have a very best best friend, but she's dead. Then my family doesn't care abt me. I dont know, I have so many prob really. I doubt myself for passing day by day, i remember, i almost kill myself many times.