how do you feel about your life?
its fun? sad? excited? depresion?

lately i dont feel any good part, i dont smile, i dont laught.
i dont know since when i start feeling so empty.

i cant find anything that i want to do, that make me feel something, maybe excitement, something that keep you up, make you stronger, even how bad is your life.

i have a few friends, but they not like a friends.
sometimes they annoying me, i cant stand it to be around them.

i dont have any enemies.

i dont really have problem that make me feeling down, neither a good one.

i start to hate everypeople around me, even they dont do bad thing to me, even my family.

i start to hate helping other.

i hate to talk to other, but sometimes i needed to.

the big problem is i dont really know what i should do about this situation, what should i do tomorrow, and next day after tomorrow, next and next.

my only activition now is whatching film, but somehow i start to not enjoying every film now too.

i dont have a girlfriend, and i dont want to, having one is causing much trouble i think, and i cant stand next to any girls.

in my basic, junior, or high school im always have a girl that i like, watching them bring peace to me, seeing their smile, laugh, cry, sometimes i even talk to them, it relly make me excited, but not this time, i dont have any girl that i like.

im smart when im in basic, junior, or high school too, but not this time.
i found studying is very boring, i dont feel excited when im competete to be a top student again.

maybe i lost my passion, where in past i have it.

i couldnt stand this situation again, fuck this life.